Thursday 30 June 2016

#18: Quotes of the month!!

“He who is not courageous enough to take risks will accomplish nothing in life.”
Mohammed Ali

“Anything That costs you your peace is too expensive.”

“The man who has no imagination has no wings.”
Mohammed Ali

“Love Yourself so much that when someone treats you wrong, you recognise it.”

“Age is whatever you think it is. You are as old as you think you are.”
Mohammed Ali


“Life without ups and downs, pain, joy and sorrow is incomplete— If you live a life that way then trust me you are still yet to live!”
YSK

“Service to others is the rent you pay for your room here on earth.
Mohammed Ali



Thursday 23 June 2016

Nura: A Warrior, A Soldier, A Fighter!

My body is numb; I remember feeling this way 4 years ago. I didn't know how to feel or react then and I still don't till this point. I keep replaying some of my most memorable moments with you and our last few conversations just wishing we could share them again.

My heart is already in pieces, but I feel like the pieces got smaller. You found a way to touch people directly or indirectly, luckily I was privileged to know you. You made everyone feel better and never complained. You lived up to your name and lit up people's lives everywhere you went. You believed in me even when I felt like giving up and assured me all would be fine. I could write paragraphs and master all the positive words in the dictionary but it still wouldn't do justice to all the things I have to say about you and the impact you have had on my life and countless others around. Thank you for not only being a part of my life but for letting me be a part of yours as well. Your suffering is over and you are in a better place In sha Allah. I shall cherish those moments we shared, conversations & memories I was privileged to experience with you forever. We shall meet again in heaven In sha Allah. Your legacy will live on In sha Allah. 

Allah ya maka Rahma Nura and grant you jannah, Ameen! (11th June, 2016)


"To Live In The Hearts We Leave Behind Is Not To Die."
Thomas Campbell

"Grief is a process, not a state."
Anne Grant

"It takes time to accept it when you lose someone, when you finally do you have to find the best way for you to deal with it; as time doesn't help you after acceptance!"
YSK

"A hero is an ordinary individual who finds the strength to persevere and endure in spite of overwhelming obstacles."
Christopher Reeve




Saturday 11 June 2016

Pain

What is pain? This question has a different meaning depending on what a person is going through at a particular period in their life. I am not going to waste your time defining all the types of pain because that is what dictionaries are meant for and painful experiences. 

My type of pain was triggered by losing someone I cared about deeply. I honestly never thought I would experience heartbreak without being in love or in a relationship but I guess mine might have even been worse than those as it was caused by death. My heart shattered in pieces, still trying to mend it but I doubt that is possible I might just have to deal with it or learn to be numb to it. Loss taught me how to turn my emotions off to the point that I can seem emotionally dead or even heartless. Putting on facades and looking like the happiest person in the room when really I'm probably the most broken of all is damn exhausting, trust me. I have been mildly depressed for four years but I'm not here to elaborate on that. The pain still feels like a fresh wound.

I have understood that it is no longer a nightmare, but that it is a reality even though I'm yet to accept that. I have been told that it is not healthy to live with pain but how do I get rid of it? If the pain fades away, will you go with it? I think I will numb the pain for as long as I can, keep up with that hole that will probably never be filled and the alone feeling in the midst of humans! I ask myself if this day will forever be the worst day of my life; or will it go back to being a regular day like it used to be? Hopefully my happiness does not get conquered by the pain, and maybe someday the pain will make me stronger!

Rest In Peace Farida (3rd June, 2012)

"But pain's like water. It finds a way to push through any seal. There's no way to stop it. Sometimes you have to let yourself sink inside of it before you can learn how to swim to the surface."


"If you can sit with your pain, listen to your pain and respect your pain — in time you will move through your pain."

"Time doesn't heal anything. It just teaches you how to live with the pain."

“Grief is like the ocean; it comes on waves ebbing and flowing. Sometimes the water is calm, and sometimes it is overwhelming. All we can do is learn to swim.”
 Vicki Harrison